After the memorial, Eli's sister offered Mara the spiral notebook. It was at once an admission and a trust. Inside were sketches and lists: "Bus stop mural? Yes." "Teach kids vector basics? Maybe." "Finish the van logo; make it sing." There were also letters Eli had never mailed—apologies, confessions, small triumphs. Mara read late into the night and felt like she was piecing together a person from margins.